Thursday, January 25, 2007

Emma's Morning Routine

wakes gets uspotty

"the cupboard"
test, insulin, milk


The Icky shuffle

Thanks for the laugh Carey i will follow suit because i need to publish something other than Diabetes today (that is essential at times), and it looked like you had a blast doing that. So these are the rules:
Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question.
So here it goes...(warning i have a very eclectic range on my gym mp3 player.)

What does next year have in store for me?
Go To Hell - Megadeath (GULP!)

What's my love life like?
Hey - The Pixies

What do I say when life gets hard?
Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall

What do I think of on waking up?
White Shadows - Cold Play (How sad is that?)

What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Round and Round - Ratt (Almost true but in reality it was Mr. Roboto - Styx. I will never live that one down. Every wedding i go to now i slip the DJ 20 so upon any circumstance will he not play that song. The next time it will be played will be at Emma's wedding.)

What do I want as a career?
Final Countdown - Europe (That is what it would be if i was in charge of any aircraft)

Favorite place?
Not Ready to Make Nice - Dixie Chix (Guilty Pleasure of mine)

What do I think of my parents?
Out of My Mind - James Blunt ( I will not comment on this one as my Momma reads this blog;)

What's my porn star name?
Personal Jesus - Depeche Mode (Need i say more?...Jeeeeesss--u---sss--Chris, i hear that often!) (Sorry Mom)

Where would I go on a first date?
At The Hundredth Meridian - Tragically Hip (Who says im not romantic)

Drug of choice?
Paranoid - Black Sabbath ( i couldn't have even PICKED a better one)

Describe myself
Come Undone - Robbie Williams

What is the thing I like doing most?
Bad Day - Daniel Powter (You win some you lose some)

What is my state of mind like at the moment?
Deep Inside of You - Third Eye Blind ( i hope this is just for fun because the only thing around is my cat...I'm not into that kinda thing)

How will I die?
A Little Respect - Erasure

That was seriously fun. Go Bears.

Monday, January 22, 2007

Thank you

My first time publishing on Chris's site. I do read all of Chris's links and depending on the day I either am extremely saddened or I feel really empowered by every ones strength.
The past 4 months have definitely been life altering, I took for granted simplicity... Personally I have become a stronger more humbled person. I appreciate the smaller things alot more (that's so cliche). "Daddy chasing, tickling and playing with Emma until she giggling so much she's snorting, or going to the park and Emma repeatedly going down the slide "again" "again" "again", Emma running in the house searching for her "kitty" cat so she can give him that headlock hug, or wrap him in a blanket like he's her baby (he just loves it by the way). Those moments diabetes can never take and those moments are what makes me realize Emma is a happy little girl, to her she knows no different.
I soak in every day with Chris and Emma, I love our family.
I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that Emma was given diabetes because we/she can handle it. My hope is that throughout Emma's childhood with diabetes we can teach and support her to live to her highest potential with diabetes not as a crutch but an enabler.
Thank you to everyone who supports Chris and our family.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Who gets it?

Sheesh i go away for a few days and my sister makes friends with the lot of you (awesome), a d-lurking has been initiated, the south and the east get hammered by winter (finally), American Idol..The Apprentice..and Football playoffs begin, and Emma loses more beta cells.

When she was first diagnosed it was all because Mom thought she had a bladder infection and the story unfolded from there. So this time around a couple of weeks ago when she caught a cold for the first time since before her dx we were introduced to the world of fast acting insulin. I don't even know the full name of it i ll just call it Novo Rapid for now.

It was definitely a sad and very challenging time when we had to break out that cartridge of rapid. But at the end of the day it is a very happy and rewarding thing we had to do. Since mixing the two in the morning her numbers have been dialed in. Amazing. She is safe. She doesn't seem to go through those agitated moments and other symptoms (for now) related with highs and lows(other than a typical two year old would anyway).

We have empowered her with this disease. She is the one who has to live with this shit. So she is the one that has to control this. We are just there because our thumbs work better than hers.

"Emma...where should we do your test.?"
"Baby...can you show daddy how to do it?"
"Sweetie what is this for?"
"What does insulin give you?"
"What was your number at Aunties today?"
"Did you have lots of energy?..did you run lots today?" What gives you energy?"

No worries we don't ask her all these at once. But they are definitely out there. And you know what?! She answers ALL of the questions. ALL of the time. Maybe she is not ready to take a test. So its up to her within reason when and how it is done.

She is too young. She is too innocent. However the hell she got this. She sure gets it.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Battling -40 Celsius winter weather. As it cut right through me this past week. Working long hours. Packing for our big move tomorrow. Being introduced to some high blood sugars. Correction doses of fast acting. Has proven for a very intense week. So Internet will be hooked up on Tuesday. I will post pictures and will definitely have lots to say about Emma then. But for now i must pack this computer.
Take care all and wish for some less cold weather our way. I would love it to warm up to -25 or so.
See you all soon and take care.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Novo Virgin

Talk about "jinxing" ones self. I cannot believe that on my last post i actually mentioned Emma's Diabetes as being a breeze. What an idiotic thing to do/say. We have not even gotten through one logbook yet and i go and tell it on the mountain that this shit is easy.

Through the beginning of her book i am seeing her morning numbers 4.8,5.4,5.6,4.0, 4.9 etc. You get the picture. But the last three pages of Am readings have been riddled by 5.9's, 6.9's, 6.5's etc. You get the picture. And yes so are we getting that same picture too. This is NOT going away. This is NOT getting easier. I know you all must have been reading my blogs and thinking to yourself (because you were too nice to say "out loud") this poor sucker...the reality of managing this has not even begun to surface.

Miss Emma has been sick to 3 days now. Momma took her to the Dr. today and she has a double ear infection. And her asthma is acting up like we haven't seen it in a while. She started off this morning at 6.0 (108) NICE! Midday 12.0 (216) NOT nice. Dinner 21.8 (392.4) call the on call Dr.

See this has never hapend to us before. Just like the day she was diagnosed has never happened to us before. I certainly did feel like someone tapped me on the shoulder this afternoon and introduced me to this disease once again. It hurt me. It hurt me bad. We did everything we could this past few days to avoid a call to the Dr. To avoid the next step. And that next step was administering fast acting. I know this is because she is sick. But it was a huge wake up call.

It was the actuality of cracking open that vile for the first time that ripped me. It read about how ever diabetic does this, how every parent troubles through this but i just read it. I felt compassionate for you all. But i had no freaking clue. But now i do. I guess these are times we need our support the most. These are the times we need to dig our heels in. Family and friends need to know what is going on. That is essential.

Well its late and it has been an intense day. We are moving on Friday and we are pooped. But i cannot go without metntioning the GOLD and the GREATEST. What a day to be Canadian.

Take care.

Monday, January 01, 2007

One 2 year olds birthday + one Christmas + One New Years Eve = 3 weeks eating, drinking, eating, running around, tired bodies, eating and just in case i have missed it alot of eating.

But the the biggest blessing we got through this past three weeks was Emma and her Diabetes. Is it weird to think that this was a blessing to us? Or is it a way of saying that it really empowered us to take control of it. Taking control so much that in these past days she wasn't hit with extremely high numbers or low for that matter. If she ate alot we would run around, if she didn't eat much and was running around we simply put it to her that she needs to eat something so that she can keep playing. Oh god does she ever love to play.

Her diabetes really connected us to her body throughout the holidays. We generated a great feel of the trifecta of carbs/exercise/insulin. With the risk of jinxing us i must say it was more or less a breeze.

She has always been involved with testing and her insulin. I know she hears us talk about carbs, measurements, etc. That will stick one day when she is old enough to understand such things. But as for now she is really getting that every morning it is test, insulin, then milk. No matter how we do it. And i like that she changes her routine every day and if she says no or she isn't ready we just ask her to let us know when and where she wants it. And 9 times out of 10 she will turn right around and let us know where and how.

Things are going really good for now and i hope everyone had the most amazing Christmas and i wish you all the best for the New Year. I have been cheking in daily on you all. Take care.

Goodbye 2006. You were a wild one. 2007 lets see what you bring.